I'm just a kid.

My ex/current/crush/love

I just posted about this before I realized I haven’t been keeping up..

10.10.10<3

If this is what teen love is, I’m never growing up.

I’ve never been this happy and I don’t think I’d be able to breathe without Kristina, she means everything to me<3

It amazes me so much how fast time goes.

But it’s also confusing as to how it seems like it’s been forever.

The last month has been nothing but what I consider perfection….but it seems like it’s been years of it.  I’m never going to grow old of this<3

All those who took their lives due to hate crimes based on their sexuality.  No more throgs neck jokes till tmrw.

Last night I had the most amazing dream I’ve ever had.  As mot everyone knows by now, Brittany will be gone from us three weeks this wednesday.  Now last night, I had a dream….that I was older…like twenty years from now and I was with her.  I was in her house and it was like nothing had happened.  We were standing in her living room and I just stared at her.  It felt so real.  In my dream I reached out to hug her and I felt her hug me back..It was the most surreal experience I’ve ever had and it made me truly realize in my heart, that she’s not gone.  She’s always with us.~

Brittany Lee Vega.

February 17, 1996 to September 22, 2010

This is a fucking terrible tragedy.  To say the very least.  I’m not into talking about it, honestly, I don’t want to at all.  I’m just putting this here for everyone to understand how much we take life for granted.

Teenagers especially don’t think twice about any of their actions, I know for a fact no one does.  We’re impulsive and we do whatever we want.  

We are not invincible.

Next time you want to run across the street and see if you make it, think of Brittany.  

resteasyBrittany~

I totally forgot this thing existed….I still don’t know how to use it….I still don’t care enough to figure it out.

I’m happy.

She makes me happy.

That’s all that’s on my mind<3

Day 6.

A stranger.

In all honesty, a complete stranger would probably see me as just a little dumbass teenager.  I’m short, I’m a little chubby.  The one thing I will pride myself on is my smile.  I know I have a killer smile and I know how to use it.  Another thing is, no matter what color my eyes are, I know I got a killer stare too.  I don’t think I intimidate people, do I?

Honestly. okay. what the hell is up with girls and acting like, “Oh hiii heheh I like you but I’m going to act like I don’t but now you know so don’t worry about it!!”  And then after that, you lose all hope because it’s like, “Oh jeeze, I like this girl A LOT but I don’t think she likes me…well maybe she still does” And then you get all nervous and shit and it’s just freaking stupid.  I’m becoming a nun.

I want to start a youtube video blog…who would watch it?

Have you ever felt like…worthless?  As cliche as that sounds….I mean it.  Have you ever felt like no matter what anyone says or does to help you, you still don’t see that light at the end of your tunnel; no hope for yourself.  Cause sometimes I feel like that…just saying.

I don’t really have anything interesting to talk about, my mind is a blank right now….I just ate a roast beef melt (Yes at 8 AM) and I don’t feel well now…someone should bring me some tums.~